There are cities so persistent in culture that they exist in our minds even if we have never been there. That's what New York is for me. It's been a set for every second movie of my teenage years it almost feels like I grew up there. I dreamed of New York love story, the story of success, the dreams come true, my story. In reality, I am very dodgy in the eyes of US government, so for now they won't even let me visit. It makes me sad. But thankfully there is so much more of this world to visit before I become worthy of US visa. I love Europe and my top dream destinations are only couple of hours away. I'm lucky.
Paris must be one of such places for many, many people. I was fortunate enough to get an idea of Paris in early age and then move there in my early 20s. I wish I was consistently documenting my journey since then. I used to walk everywhere in awe, looking at everything with a fresh eye. Early memories, not yet saturated with pain and heartbreak that was to be experienced in the City of Lights.
I was mostly walking and walking, exploring, curious what's behind every corner. It was therapeutic. I started taking pictures with my brand new camera but for some reason it didn't become my regular companion straight away, so many moments just passed by, never captured, forgotten forever. Life happened and i didn't always live it camera in hand. For some reason my creativity was somehow suppressed most of my life as if I wasn't letting myself unleash it. As if I didn't deserve it.
There is some pictures from this period that survived. Showing Paris from the perspective of my early days as parisienne. Everyone should have their Paris. Fortunately or not, I discovered that a lot of photography from that time was simply really really bad, which left me with a little less outrageous amount to choose from. I'm still stuck in the past. It is however, slightly reassuring, since I can say I made some progress over the years.
I promised myself I won't leave this city until I make sure I documented my Paris. My streets, churches, cemeteries, my life here. It might take a while. It can be a lifelong mission but I know the day will come I will have to say goodbye. For now, all this beauty is here for me to capture. Enjoy. x