Today I feel like I've been run over by an elephant. I slept longer, my muscles ache, I am all mushy and almost too relaxed, like after a good swimming session. I really feel like sitting in front of the fire, eating delicious foods and watching movies all day. My get up and go has got up and gone. I was wondering why, I was so full of energy recently. But then I even had to take some time off, which made me really guilty. The problem I have now is that I wake up very early and feel knocked out late afternoon. Which isn't good if you're trying to work in the evening. I just can't seem to have it all at once - my body was asking for rest and I decided to listen to it, despite my disappointment that I'm not a superhuman after all. Well, I must say I deserved it.
I took quite a few steps recently to welcome change.
After a very crazy time of unregulated sleep pattern I started implementing a new schedule. As you might expect, the change doesn't happen overtime and there is a lot of resistance on the way. I did reiki and acupuncture sessions which might have triggered a deep healing - as we know, sleep is the perfect time for healing and regeneration. It also has an impact on our learning speed and memory. I have started using a planner and now I take a moment every day to revisit how I really spend my time and at least roughly schedule the next day. I only have been doing it for about 10 days but I already see the difference. It helps me focus on what is really important and put my energy into things that genuinely make a difference to my well being and my projects. It's all work in progress and finding what suits me best.
I still tend to beat myself sometimes, forgetting what I tell other people - that change needs time. It takes effort to take risk, to be brave, to make a difference in your life, to make healthy choices. This energy has to come from somewhere. Going against the current of our comfort, switching autopilot to conscious awareness can be tiring at first. Experiencing resistance is something normal. Your body might even act against you and throw tantrums, asking for the usual treatment. We have to remember why we decided to take these steps in the first place and endure until our cells will calm down and start not only getting used to, but also craving more of the new, healthy habits. Annoying at it might sound, resistance is the sign that it is important, that you are on the right track. Keep going.